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Paperface

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1.
This city keeps you alive It’s taught you all that you need to survive And your mother doesn’t like the things that she hears Since her daughter moved out to the east This city knows you by name It knows all your lies and it knows that you’re trying to hide And the boys, oh the boys Are drawn in by your radiant charm And they can’t take it Your beauty can’t take it Cause this city tells you its secrets It knows who you used to be and it knows you’re not like me But, I don’t know, I don’t know I don’t know, I don’t know why you left for the city Why’d you leave for the city? This city, it holds onto you tight I stopped by your place and your roommates haven’t seen you in a while You’re strapped down to the seat of a subway car You stare at the signs, the smoke, and the line where I once stood just to lie at your door Well, I don’t know, I don’t know I don’t know, I don’t know why you left for the city Why’d you leave for the city? Was it your mother? Was it your dad? Maybe you sister? Was it your brother? That bitch who lived across the street? Or was it possibly me? Now I know, now I know I think I know, yes I know why you left for the city I’m why you left for the city And even though, even though Even though, even though you’ll never have me You’ll always have the city You’ll always have the city
2.
I locked myself outside again I'd get another key but I always swallow them My friends all tell me that I should calm down And buy the new Ben Folds record They said he's gone back to his old sound It's getting itchy inside of my head today The doctors call me crazy as they turn me away My girlfriend tells me that it's not working out She's seeing someone else who has clothes and a jacket You wouldn't know him, he doesn't go to this school Everyone is telling me lies That Ben Folds record was just okay Everything is just okay And sometimes I have dreams about the last time... I threw up Coupon books are stealing my soul The deals are there, but where would I go? My librarian tells me I should pay all my fines But, I don't have the cash And they don't make coupons for that Everything just freaks me out Cause everything is just okay
3.
She rolls her own cigarettes With whatever weed's left in her pocket And asks me if I've ever been in love I keep telling her I'm already taken So there's no way that she should be mistaken But she visits my room late at night all the time And she just won't leave me alone She hates the world for being shallow Yeah, she hates it for not letting her in So she throws herself at all those misogynist boys Who'll never let her under their skin As we cycle in and cycle out A constant rejection, a constant restart It's real for her but synthetic for me And since I've been numb, I still couldn't see the difference She looks for the beauty in every moment Inquires under every stone Cuz if nature and art can fill a life with purpose Then maybe she won't feel so damn alone She says being stoned is like a hug from God It keeps her calm and it keeps her from feeling Those terrible lurches that perturb her and urge her To drink herself to death in the bathtub The closer I get the more she erodes And even though I don't feel affection She persists to pursue and I am subdued As she grips my wrists, my ribs, my lips tightly As we cycle in and cycle out A constant rejection, a constant restart It's real for her but synthetic for me And since I've been numb, I still couldn't see The difference As we cycle in and cycle out A constant rejection, a constant restart It's real for her but synthetic for me And since I've been numb, I still couldn't see That she had been scared, just as scared as I'd been When I found out that I could feel nothing again So I'm not an ass but I think I'm diseased But up in your tree, you can't even see the difference
4.
Time is never going to be a friend I like to see He comes gliding from the ocean Like harmonic motion And girls were never going to call anyway First dates never went so bad as when I lost my keys And the winter nipped your nose And you fell all about me I was so cold that I could barely see. Sleep tight and kill me for spite of myself These dreams are a waste of my time and my health Your radio and Hail to the Thief I’ve never been that depressed in my life So I turned to Nintendo A surgical knife In my belly might better suffice for these crimes But why would I take these hits to my face anymore? Was your record player born-again? And save all your Christian friends? I remember the pregnant pauses And the stillborn silence When I came to collect my things you had hidden a few of them Sleep tight and kill me for spite of myself These dreams are a waste of my time and my health Your radio and Hail to the Thief I’ve never been that depressed in my life So I turned to Nintendo A surgical knife In your belly might better suffice for these crimes But why would I take these hits to my face anymore? Your radio and Hail to the Thief Your car horn and Hail to the Thief Your new hair and Hail to the Thief Growing Pains and Hail to the Thief Graduation and Hail to the Thief Fake Id’s and Hail to the Thief Why’d you take my Hail to the Thief? Storm out and shatter my knees? Oh well
5.
I am going to work. I am going to work. I am armed to the teeth with my gut and my nerve And I am ready. Ready to serve. The artillery is manned; the bowls counted out And you begin to wonder what it’s really about Then open the doors and march into the hall The people are drinking, the women are dancing The men are putting their keys in a jar. And the fellow in the corner with eyes like winter Says “You are what you wear.” And he wears a wife beater. Say! Oh.... Dutch bussing tables in the late afternoon Oh.... Dutch bussing tables in the late afternoon I am going to work. I am going to work. Set and re-set. What’s it all for? It’s a war. So what are we fighting for? We’re sticking our arms into a tub of denial Because I keep telling myself that I do it for you. I deserve this reproach and I admire your coldness But when you brush my lips I get chills for awhile Darling.... Oh.... Dutch bussing tables in the late afternoon Oh.... Dutch bussing tables in the late afternoon I am going to work. I am going to work. Black and white night, right? It’s never easy when you’re lacking in tips But we scrub until our fingers shrivel up like raisins And hide behind the washer where we know we’re safe Yet all the grandmas in the middle are spreading the rumors That the kids are on drugs and dying in gutters. Say! Oh.... Dutch bussing tables in the late afternoon Oh.... Dutch bussing tables in the late afternoon
6.
Dead 04:19
She left alone for about a week But, we’ll still make out occasionally It’s not the best for my health She spreads through me like a social disease And it's getting the best of me She’s never coming back At least that’s what she said What’s the point of being alone if I can’t get you out of my bed? And every time you come around I can’t feel you, can’t feel you Maybe you’re not there Maybe you’re just dead And every time you come around I can’t feel you, can’t feel you Maybe I’m not really here Maybe I’m just dead All these wasted lines read through these wasted scenes But still, I let her inside, let her closer to me She disappears for a while And likes to lie with a smile And she’s my social disease She’s never coming back I at least know that much of it What’s the point of being alone if I can’t get you out of my head? And every time you come around I can’t feel you, can’t feel you Maybe you’re not there Maybe you’re just dead And every time you come around I can’t feel you, can’t feel you Maybe I’m not really here Maybe I’m just dead
7.
We’ll kill your car with an atomic bomb We’ll snuff a fire with the white of our palms With love and lust and intolerance too, And when we’re done we’ll turn on cable news Alright! I don’t know much about how factories work. But I used to hang around industrial parks. And industry is the causation for feeling drowned This must be why he tried suicide I could never say the word “suicide”. That must be all that he knows. Our daytrip to the machine was fine We lost our shoes a half a dozen times A longer tour of the Capital Square They got some pretty smart girls over there. Alright! I don’t know much about how factories work. But I used to hang around industrial parks. And industry is the causation for feeling drowned. This must be why you tried suicide Put your money where your mouth is every time. You’ll buy sugar with your mouth! I know a girl who looks just like Gemma Ward And I have some friends who are just like other friends I know a girl who can soothe each aching wound All her lovin’ and it does not satisfy Our daytrip proved to only magnify That all her loving will not pacify
8.
No Company 02:49
It’s hard to say you’re lonely When there’s so much company When isolation is so in vogue And it’s all inevitability As we flock to the cities ‘Cause there’s no work back home Because irony loves company Overcrowded even though we’re alone Turn up the jams and stick your head in the trees So no one ever notices me And still I can’t decide Do I love me? And if I ever seem involved I swear it’s not one of my tricks It’s one of my illusions So I should get my head out of my ass And get that ass into a car Because I’m probably unneeded I’m not a part of their company Less crowded as I leave them alone Turn up the jams and stick your head in the trees Now I’m afraid they’ve noticed me I shut the door too loud Do I love me? Because irony loves company Overcrowded even though we’re alone We turn up the jams and stick our heads in the trees I wonder if I even notice me If I met me Would I love me?
9.
Emma brought swords to the party I brought a cake, a chocolate cake Emma brought knives, and I brought dessert And Shawn is in the bedroom with Brianne; He’s doing her hair, playing with her hair, Playing with her underwear! Oh my God I tried to leave, but Dave poured me another drink and said “Don’t go home tonight. Leave the bottles on the shelf. Don’t go home tonight. We can still drink, still drink to your health.” I chased it all with a shot of regret. With disco balls hung from guitar strings, I went upstairs, up, up and away To find Spalding getting high and beating up fruit. And I asked for a sip of his juice We talked about Jane, We talked about Joy Division, we talked about pain And holy shit, I tried to go, but he packed up another bowl and said “Don’t go home tonight. Leave the bottles on the shelf. Don’t go home tonight. We can still drink, still drink to your health.” I chased it all with a shot of regret. Don’t go home…. Don’t go home…. The crowd began to swell around 2 am When the band started playing and Shawn came downstairs And Brianne was on the bed, crying her socks off And Emma was on the bass amp taking off her shirt Well, fuck, I tried to dip, but then I took some painkillers and watched Pink Flamingos
10.
Welcome Home 03:51
The bridge by the school is empty and bare. If you follow me, I can take you there. To a werewolf party, but nobody came. We took off all our clothes when it started to rain. And I wanted to stay. You handed me a box for my everyday use. But at the bottom of the box was a lit fuse. I ran for the country with my alligator boots. I’d do whatever it takes to get loose. “Don’t close your eyes.” I said, I said. “Don’t close your eyes”. You said, “I just need to rest.” No one knows death like a hospital bed. And I always want to ask it for advice, But I can’t. The south side stores have been closed for years. In my first car, I used to roll over there. The girls around here have criminal minds, In my sleep, I’m kind enough to rewind. But I can’t go to bed until I clean up the yard. 52 plastic cups and a library card The skipper was dressed up like Captain Piccard I could laugh but I’m tired and all this work is a drag So let’s kick it into gear. Welcome home. We haven’t seen you in nearly a thousand years Welcome home. And the show is just about to begin again. Welcome Home.

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released August 17, 2012

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Eric Zahn
Connor Diedrich
Cooper Diedrich
Erik Johnson
Eric Meehl

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